oh yar... and abt today... since i went to bed early yesterday.. i would of coz expect myself to wake up on time fer SIP launch.. but.. i was kinda pissed off tis mornin' wen my dad woke me up fer sahur at 0430.. i refused to wake up.. told him tt i did not want to eat.. and he literally pulled me to wake up.. and wen i sat on my bed still refusin' to go out.. he came in again and started scoldin' me and i stubbornly still refuse to get up and eat... i juz kept quiet and was already very pissed.. and fer the 3rd time he came in and scolded me again.. talkin' abt respect and all.. like wat the hell rite.. i got out of my bed.. washed my face.. ready to blow anytime.. sat at the table.. my ma's makin' some lame jokes tt i did not luff to.. my dad started talkin' abt eatin' together since we are not blessed with the opportunities to do so tis puasa... i was starin' at my plate and juz ate the rice.. i did not have anything else.. wat to do.. i was too pissed to eat at all.. finished my rice and washed my plate.. stood in front of the fridge to drink water.. and tt too he had to comment.. argh...! i went straight to bed without sayin' anything to em.. he came into my room later to ask wat time i wanna wake up and i told him not to bother coz i can wake up on my own.. haiz.. yes i noe.. totally rude.. i have my reasons fer not wantin' to wake up lar...

1. i have sth to attend to the next mornin' and i noe i will not be able to wake esp given my wakin-up-late syndrome..

2. he did not seem to have any problems at all with me not wakin' up fer sahur these past yrs.. and suddenly it's a bid deal to him...

3. i hate to be awake and den try to sleep back at 5 am coz i noe i can't do it.. i'll have trouble in sleepin' back again.. and i did wake up late fer launch okie..

4. and like maybe most of u may have guessed my reason fer not wakin' up.. yes.. it's to skip a meal.. but like hell i can take it lar.. not as if i haven't been doin' it at all.. and wouldn't it count like havin' supper..? and supper's not good fer u rite.. so yar.. the healthier reason why i would rather sleep and not wake up..

enuff of tt.. so the launch was borin'.. took a cab down coz i was late and i had to pass Vit the cd player.. got her to fetch me from the cargo lift.. so shweet..! haha.. sat thru the whole lect.. yawnin' most of the time.. went to meet the LO.. i got Mathavan.. haha.. saw Nic and Melissa.. will be werkin' with em more fer the next 11 weeks.. chatted fer awhile.. den waited fer the rest to join me, Ling and Shahana.. finally, the rest came.. and so we all left sch to window shop.. haha.. so much fer window shoppin' coz me and Az ended up buyin' 2 tops each from G2000.. i bought an orange and a blue one.. was kinda torn betweent the blue and pink one.. Az said the pink was nicer.. but the laydees picked blue fer me.. and i tot tt the pink one made me looked pale.. so did Ling and Irwan, they bought one each.. sat at Starbucks fer awhile.. ambik bau.. haha... talked fer awhile.. and left the place at abt 2.. headed home and showed my mom the tops.. fell asleep on her bed.. woke up to call fer pizza.. got the stuff ready fer buka.. had dinner with Fadli and Faiz.. made em luffed.. enjoyed my dinner coz we all started to throw lame jokes at each other and Fadli failin' terribly.. haha.. oh well.. i shared loads of the lame jokes tt i had came across juz a few days back.. *winks*

so okie.. i got to let Fadli play games now.. he's been buggin' me since like wat an hour ago..? poor thing....

Is there such thing as a Friday Blues.....?

i went to werk late.. yes.. somehow.. my body's clock is no longer reliable.. and it's drivin' me crazy..! i used to go bed at 2 or 3 in the mornin' and still be able to wake up at 7.. and now.. i can't even wake up on time.. damn.. got a feelin' tt i will be gettin' into lotza trouble soon.. so i reached werk at 1040 and saw Ayu and the floor was still not done.. she was doin' inside first.. so i got the job done and let her do inside.. apologized to her fer bein' late.. i am usually very punctual or early fer werk okie.. so ya.. not much customers till 12.. tt's wen Gina came and damn.. she assigned Gina to the cashier.. i gotta admit tt i was pissed.. like damn.. i am fasting afterall and u expect me to do floor..? like wat kinda mgr are u.... i dunno.. was pretty upset abt it.. hence the reluctance in carryin' out my task properly.. tho i came across a couple of the nicer customers.. haiz.. i was beat la.. fasting and running ard the whole floor.. not enuff of sleep.. i was gettin' really grouchy.. haiz..

decided not to do much werk.. sat down fer awhile coz my ankle's beginnin' to hurt like hell.. talked to Ricky.. a lil bit to Kok Way.. den crap to Colin.. basically my day was slackin' abt la.. did pastin' of stickers and toppin' up.. one thing i kinda regret doin' was to snap at my parents.. they called me and asked whether i needed em to pick me up.. of well.. i told em no need coz i was goin' home with Shar.. and they juz had to call a gazillion times and keep askin' wen i already told em tt i dun want em to pick me up.. haiz.. so i kinda snapped at my mom.. worse was wen she tot der was still Taco Bell at CWP and i juz brushed her off.. i have no idea why.. but yea.. i am easily irritable nowadays.. i really dunno why.. i mean it defeated the whole purpose of fasting la.. truth is fasting is not only a way fer u to learn to abstinate from food and feel how the poor feel without food.. der's a whole lot of other stuff u got to do.. like purify urself..... in a way..

reached home and ate dinner.. after tt sat in my parents room, tried to make things up.. was still feelin' grumpy.. i was really tired.. went online to print out the guidelines.. had trouble with the damn printer.. was quite pissed.. received a virus.. desperately tryin' to get rid of it.. haiz.. bad bad luck.. argh...! so in the end i went to bed without readin' the guidelines.. like heck la...

Wednesday:
finally i got to watch Dirty Dancing 2 on DVD.. haha.. the moves were awesome..! and after tt, watched The Prince and Me.. so romantic...! haha.. and like it's so not worth it la rentin' at Kovan.. i should have gone to Tamp.. most prob i can get disc also... haha.. like no more next time at Kovan..! den ended off the whole marathon with Cruel Intentions.. haha.. tho i have watched it almost to uncountable times.. the show still moved me.. haiz.. esp the part where Sabastian had to tell Annette tt he did not love her at all.. i find it stupid..! all he thot of at tt time was his pride.. and how he actually wanted to tell her the truth... he loved her... how he risked his life to save her.. awww....

had lotsa junk food... ordered pizza.. ate snickers.. root beer float with extra ice cream.. additional ice cream with too much toppin' of Hershey's choc fudge.. more ice cream with choc fudge.. no way... i can't believe i actually allowed myself to indulge in such sins.. haha.. oh well.. like someone put it.. it's the last day tt i can allow such indulgence on my part.. okie okie.. so after tt, did a tarot reading.. hmm.. tho it was an advancement from my previous reading.. coz none of emotion came up.. it was more of myself kinda thing.. oh well.. it showed me tt wealth may come and i am motivated to make it come by.. however, in the process of achievin' the wealth tt i want.. i would have to face pain tt my family or frenz will have to go thru.. somewhere along the way.. i kinda wanted sth else.. sth more fulfillin' and not juz materiality.. i wish i hope i pray i wonder....

Thursday:
went to werk.. saw Kok Way and he was behavin' very awkwardly the whole day.. i have a feelin' he kinda noe of the stuff tt's been goin' ard lately.. i dunno.. maybe Matt's right.. i am juz bein' too sensitive.. haha.. haiz.. i hate it la.. i dun mean fer it to turn out tis way.. i dun like like u but i like u.. haha.. oh well.. i shall play stupid den... so werk was kinda borin'.. my regular came.. till now i have no freakin' idea wat's his name.. and Nora dropped by with her guy.. haven't seen her ard fer sometime.. probably all the modellin' and all.. so ya... started closin' quite fast.. went home.. had a peek at my leg and i realized tt it kinda got worse.. coz now i can see the veins and all.. it kinda hurts now more than previously.. haiz.. i hope it wun worsen.. i need to wear heels on Sat..! haha.. okie okie.. save me all the preachin'..! i will go to the doctor if it really really really gets worse kiez...

spent sometime tinkin' abt the A, B and C situation.. hahaha.. no big deal... =) so chatted with Ana, Vit, Azila with Yanie MIA.. hahha.. so okie.. the story was told of who appealed to Vit and who the girls thot would be ideal fer Azila.. haha.. i can't say anything or else i wun live to see the daylights of tomolo.. oh ya.. a threat comin' from Azila.. hahaha.. so now.. i shall go to bed fer i have werk at 10 later...! argh!!

there's just too much that i can do and too little that i have done..

my mom was talkin' to my dad on the phone after lunch.. they had some misunderstandings.. the conversation ended and my mom started cryin'.. it wasn't tt bad.. she was all vexed up inside.. she juz needed to let it all out.. she started tellin' me wat i needed to noe.. i can tell tt she's tired.. she's mentally and physically exhausted of all tt she's been doin' fer the family.. she's been helpin' my dad out financially.. she started werkin' in order to lessen the burden on my dad's shoulders.. coz of tt, Fadli's left alone with Faiz most of the time.. it's sad coz i always come home late and Faiz would give his fullest attention to the comp.. Fadli would be left alone to entertain himself.. among the 4 of us, he's the one who got the least of my ma's time.. tinkin' of all these.. and hearin' my ma.. i can't help it and started to cry....

it showed me how selfish i have been.. everything's fer myself.. i could have done a lot of things which would lessen the burden my parents' carryin'.. i could have taken time off juz to spend it with Fadli.. he's only 7.. i could have helped out whenever and wherever i can.. i jus dun do anything at all.. and my ma started talkin' abt Hari Raya.. i wondered how it'd be tis year... i noe it'd be different definitely... again i thought of Fadli.. i wanted him to have the joy of new clothes and all.. things tt i was never deprived of wen young.... maybe tis time, i'd do it.. juz fer him.. my family's everything to me.. i'd give the world up fer em...

my dad.. he has high ego and a lot of pride.. many a times he would let himself face the shit of life without even askin' fer help.. i happen to inherit tis from him.. i have a lot of pride in me.. i can say tt i too have ego.. i dun ask fer help.. i keep things to myself due to my ego...

my ma.. she's selfless.. she doesn't tink of herself but others.. she gives all tt we asked fer.. she's my mom.. tho she dun say tis often, i noe she loves us lots.. sadly, i dun happen to inherit tis selfless trait from her.. would it be genetically a fault or would it better be said a personal characteristic building glitch.. i dunno.. i noe sth tt i can do.. it's to start somewhere....

today was the East Coast trip with da gang.. it was all well planned way before the day comes.. however, juz the nite before, changes were made to the meeting time and place and all.. so yea.. talkin' abt the nite before.. me, Ana and Vit were conversin' on one of the major topics of our lives.. GUYS.. haha.. oh well.. it all started of with the matchmakin' session fer Vit.. i mean dun u guys agree with me tt it's high time we see Vit datin' already..? haha.. so den we began to find the kinda guys she would wanna go out with.. so out of all, i suggested a name.. haha.. not as if we all dunno already.. *winks* so from der, we went on to talkin' abt the good and bad points of guys.. aight tis is all in general ya.. no offence..! tis led us to yet another topic of good frenz.. okie den it moved on to fallin' in love with ur best fren.. den to the yet unavoidable topic of "wat's love..?" hahaha.. so we all had our fair share of stories to share tt nite.. and i got to say tt it was indeed a conversation tt i enjoyed.. it was one of the most enrichin' and enlightenin' talks i have had so far.. so thanks girls fer ur time and all.. =)

back to the outing - so we actually agreed to meet at 1 at Bedok.. and wen i reached der at 120.. i was der first tho i was late.. haha.. den Ana came to meet me.. den we waited fer Vit.. saw Shireen and found out tt their grp's goin' East Coast too.. oh wat a coincidence.. haha.. Vit came and we took 196 down to Parkway.. in the bus was the continued story of the nite before.. alighted and met Ling who did not noe tt Parkway Parade was in Marine Parade.. haha.. the disadvantages of bein' brought up in the North eh..? haha.. so we had lunch and was supposed to wait fer Apri since he was at his gramp's place.. decided to play pool at Parkway Centre.. haha.. Vit was a pro of the beginners.. not bad not bad.. haha.. so after pool we decided to go to East Coast to meet up with Apri since we found out tt most were not comin'..

so wen we reached Mac, Apri decided to play us on and made us wait.. haha.. since he was earlier.. oh well, who asked u not to call me before u left.. i told u already wat.. so it was already 0515 wen the 4 of us got our bikes.. we cycled towards Bedok jetty and Apri msg to say tt he's at Mac wen we were halfway thru.. okie ppl were gettin' pissed.. haha.. so we went back to collect Apri wen we stopped by to say hi to Izad, Shireen, Hanif and Aristee (i tink tt's how u spell it).. Izad had a new haircut.. made him looked different.. oh well, only Vit was talkin' to em and the rest of us were waitin' behind her.. so we said bye and went to meet Apri.. got his bike and Shahana reached.. met and talked to her fer awhile and she found herself a soulmate to indulge in.. so we all resumed cycling towards the other end of East Coast.. cycled all the way to the end.. made a u-turn and stopped by the jetty and took pics.. haha.. sat by the ledge at the jetty.. tried spottin' fishies.. talked fer awhile..

went back to the shop to return our bikes.. and followed Shahana to break her fast.. sat at the Turkish restaurant.. Yanie and Sin Ping finally arrived.. we were at McCafe wen i saw tis guy who looked familiar and he was lookin' at me the same way.. tt was wen i remembered.... he's the mat from Mac, Parkway Centre who was speakin' with a so cannot make it slang u noe.. haha.. okie so we got our dinner from Mac and went to sit by the beach.. Ana was havoc as usual.. want to change dun want to change.. haha.. i was pushed into the water thanks to Ling.. haha.. was okie with it since i had extra clothes except fer a bra.. haha.. yes yes.. so i had my revenge wen i hugged Ling from the back and pulled him into the water with me.. he was quite light actually.. heez.. he was 3/4 drenched.. and they started pullin' everyone else but all failed.. haha.. so in the end, i went into the water and Ana joined me.. haha.. she was kinda excited coz she never swam at night before.. i prefer to swim at night coz der's no sun and u can see the lights across and it's a more beautiful sight.. i looked up and der weren't much stars out.. i couldn't spot my Orient's Belt.. saw a couple of others tho, shinin' down on me.. =)

got out of the water.. walked to Mac and hugged Vit from behind and of coz a wet one from me.. haha.. changed and went up to the pool place.. by then i was kinda "exposed" already.. haha.. so we went home at 11.. i shared a cab with Ping to Bedok Interchange and caught my last bus... had a lot of thots goin' thru my mind.. feelin' slightly confused... ponderin' of the topic on good frenz the nite before.... alighted and walked home from the interchange.. washed myself and got ready fer bed.. still was havin' thots on my mind.....

i noe i noe.. so here it is...

Wednesday:
woke up late and had a great time sleeping.. lacked of sleep due to studyin' last minute.. had lunch i tink and went online.. haha.. tis got to be good.. started to check my mails, surfed ard and chatted with Azman and Adi.. well.. Adi was like dearie here and dearie there.. haha.. so not interested la.. continued to chat more wen he asked if i was free later in the evenin'.. i told him nope and tt i was gonna meet a fren.. it was true coz me and Shar had already planned to meet coz he owes me a Children Day's prezzie la.. so back to Adi.. it was wen i told him i already had a "date" tt he was kinda quiet.. came the time wen i told him tt i wanna get ready fer my "date" and he went --> so i assume tt u will not be givin' me any second chance..?

at tis point dun bother to ask me wat was my ans coz i was jumpin' up and down, runnin' in and out of the room la.. =) it took him so damn bloody long la to actually get wat i wanna tell him.. despite all the huge hints and all the delayin' he was still waitin'.. still he wanted to go out.. haha.. i feel like i should not go out with him no more but wat the hell we are frenz wat.. and if he were to get led on by himself again den too bad la.. haha.. met Shar and decided to go to East Coast.. ate dinner at Mac, Parkway Centre wen i saw tis cute chinese guy.. haha.. sat on the log at the beach..

closed my eyes fer sometime to listen to nothin' but the waves callin'.. gettin' all distracted by the loads of memories flashin' by me.. tryin' as hard not to be too emo.. controllin' wat i was feelin' inside.. wonderin' as to why do we wanna move on but havin' still memories in mind.. took pics.. and found out tt i was fatter.. damn i need to do sth abt it.. haiz....

Thursday:
went to werk and it was borin'!! i dun like werkin' on weekdays.. it's sooo dead....

Friday:
to werk again.. did cashier the whole day.. i was nvr happier.. haha.. was quite tired la.. no support and it was a ladies nite.. me, Ayu, Raudha, Gina and Lili.. ended closin' quite early and Matt visited.. i was shocked wen everyone was aware of the "thingy" at werk.. like damn.. i dun want him to get the wrong idea la.. wat if he stops talkin' to me and all after he learns of the truth.. i dun want tt to happen.. i mean it all started off as a joke wat... haiz.. wat deep shit i got myself into.. so dragged Matt to the store with me to take stocks.. talked with him fer awhile.. realised how deep he has fallen and to find tt he's been used.. well at least tt's how it is to me la.. get over her already, Matt..!

so Shar was already waitin' fer me by the fountain and went home together.. haha.. played ard with him abt Lili and hmmm.. haha.. do wat u tink u should do yar... *winks* so got my prezzie from him since he had not brought it with him on Wed.. and all along in the bus was quite okie la.. we chatted and all.. until wen we alighted.. i got down, got a wrong footing due to uneven grd and yes, i fell sprainin' my left ankle.. haha.. yes yes.. in malay, it's called nangka busuk.. haha.. to those who are keepin' track of it.. i have sprained my left ankle 4 times includin' tis (twice durin' captain's ball.. haha.. vit was der wen it happened..) and 2 times fer my right..

instead of reactin' the way normal ppl would, we ended up luffin' by the roadside.. i have no freakin' idea as to why i was laughin' la.. fer 5 mins.. we attempted to get up but ended up laughin' more.. so wen i decided to finally limp home before it gets worse, we crossed the road and i was home in 5 mins.. gave the most shock to Shar and my ma who got to see the swell first hand.. haha.. it was nothin' to me la.. attended to my ankle.. havin' all the needed stuff from previous "downfalls" *winks*.. talked on the phone and slept in my ma's room with Fadli's legs right by my face.. haha..

Saturday:
waited fer my dad to reach home and he massaged my ankle.. the swellin's reduced and it was juz nothin'.. bone's intact.. haha.. speakin' from experience ppl.. haha.. so had the pleasure of the painful massage.. kinda enjoyed it tho.. damn sadist..! haha.. so took a cab with Shar to Ubi fer the Final Theory lesson as planned.. lesson's borin and i can't wait fer it to end.. haha.. and so after the lesson we went to eat our late lunch.. hungry hungry..! after tt we had to take a long time to decide wat to do next.. finally settled fer pool at Parkway.. tot of American Pool but as always i noe it'll be packed.. so went to Parkway Centre instead and i saw the cute guy werkin' again.. haha..

had a hell of time coz i expected him to trash me again.. damn.. the games were gettin' tensed.. and he didn't wanna lose.. neither did i.. like finally.. it all ended with a 5-2.. and of coz no prizes fer guessin' who's the winner...! ME!! ME!! haha.. yes.. i trashed him tt bad.. okie sorry Shar.. juz felt the obligation to blog it la.. haha.. so i was happy.. very happy.. headed home and wen i reached home.. got another massage from my dad.. nice nice.. fell asleep fer awhile and woke up wen my ma's home.. chatted with my parents abt stuff.. haha.. my dad's naggin' fer no reason.. my ma and me luffin' at my dad's PAS (Pre-Andropause Syndroms) haha..

so to all who made my life worthwhile livin'.. thanks and i appreciate it real loads.. to my parents who nvr seem to fail to wanna noe stuff abt my life, i love u two the most..! muacks!

finally the exams are over...! hurray.. to the rest of the ppl who will still be muggin'.. ppl like Amir, Ana, Matt and others from SP, NYP and NP, take ur time.. to Matt, remember our bet kiez.. still have a strong feelin' tt i'll be gettin my ice cream from u..! haha.. i actually can't believe it la.. like damn, i only got 2 papers.. haha.. i dun tink i did tt good la.. esp fer Company.. maybe with a lil bit more effort, i could have done better fer both subjects.. funny how i feel sooo unmotivated to study at all.. i was already in my slackin' mood.. den again i have been really really slack la tis sem.. feels like everything goes by like a breeze.. hmm..

i did not feel like i have studied at all.. not tt i have always been la.. haha.. well, the semester is rather short and as i have said, time pass fast wen u are enjoyin'.. tho tis sem may have been more of a period of avoidance fer me, i kinda learn to face reality and accept things fer how they are meant to be.. i noe i learnt to let go.. i did and i found out tt things happen fer a reason.. it gave me a lot of chances to show me wat i needed.. a break.. a time out from all of it.. i guess i held on fer too long.. i shoulda let it pass.. now tt i have, i am on my way to self-discovery and in the hopes of achievin' and gettin' wat i want.. =)

"The trouble with love is it can tear you up inside. Make your heart believe a lie. It's stronger than your pride. The trouble with love is it doesn't care how fast you fall and you can't refuse the call. See you've got no say at all.
Now I was once a fool it's true. I played the game by all the rules but now my world's a deeper blue. I'm sadder but I'm wiser too. I swore I'd never love again. I swore my heart would never mend. Said love wasn't worth the pain but then I hear it call my name."
- The Trouble With Love Is, Kelly Clarkson

so we went to watch White Chicks at Causeway Point.. had a hell of a time decidin' and gettin' ppl to agree to watch wat show.. in the end, Haider, Mylene and Yanie went to watch Cool Guy.. a show tt i bet would not be as comical and enjoyable as White Chicks.. bought the tix and went to Cavana to eat.. i ate the Teriyaki Chicken and it was okie la.. the rice was similar to Tenderfresh rice.. haha.. it was way havoc in the theatre coz i bet no others laughed as loud as our row la.. wat do u expect.. the super duper huge luffers were der --> Azhani, Azila, Ana and me...! hahaha..

so after tt we just walked ard and got kinda separated fer awhile.. re-met and bummed at Mac.. haha.. ate ice cream and chatted loads.. decided to play some silly games.. due to confidentiality of the game, i shan't say wat it's abt.. no.. nothin' abt dyin' of stroke while bungee jumpin'.. marryin' so tt viagra can be taken.. abt settlin' down in Batam.. abusive to husband.. nah.. none of such.. *winks*

finally left at 930.. took the bus with Azila and wen she alighted, i realised tt Adi was sittin' at our row too.. haha.. and i did not even see him der la.. like he was wearin' orange and i did not even notice him.. honestly, it's not on purpose.. coz i have tis tendency la.. like not noticin' ppl i noe out in the streets.. and tt further prove my arrogance.. haha.. sorry peepz..! so we went to Compasspoint fer a while and sat down to chat.. okie.. i am supposed to already be confessin' to him now rite.. i noe i noe.. i dunno how to put it into words... wat am i to say.. how am i to tell him.. damn... help me..! argh..!

okie.. so here it is.. finally after waitin' fer soo long.. haha.. i got it from Izad's album la.. lazy to wait fer the cd.. heez....


da gang..


malu..!


mirror, mirror on the wall, aren't we the prettiest of all..? *winks*


the cuties..

so there... the rest are linked.. so take ur time.. haha.. most of the pics are blurry.. dunno who's hands la.. muz be Apri's.. hehe.. and some were not uploaded due to cencorship.. haha.. =P

time flies fast wen u are enjoyin' urself.. it's already Oct and before i forget.. Happy Children's Day to one and all..! haha.. ooh come on.. there's a child in everyone.. =)
so like i said, it's gonna be the end of 2004 even before i am gonna realise it.. so ppl.. it's time to party..! haha..

damn disappointed to noe tt Jeassea did not make it to the final 9.. coz it's a total waste of talent.. i have no idea how the hell Singaporeans voted la.. sad tt ppl like her are not given a chance to flaunt their talent to the max.. juz coz they dun like her personality and her guarded nature, they pin her down.. damn the biased votes to Jerry who can't sing as well as her.. damn to the unfair treatment Beverly received juz coz she can sing better than the rest.. haiz.. such narrow-mindedness still exist here.. like wat the hell.....

so ya.. juz wen i tot tt things are gonna be better fer me.. it juz had to be otherwise.. damn it.. will it end only after i tell it straight to his face..? does he enjoy the words of negativity from me.. argh..! fer goodness' sake, Adi.. stop pesterin' me..! so much fer not bein' ready and tired to be in love again.. u crapped over and over again.. juz coz i agreed to meet u after werk dun mean i like u.. juz coz i sit next to u dun mean i fancy u.. juz coz i am here right now dun give u the right to be like tt..

why does it have to be tis way..? am i to hurt him before he gets the idea..? damn i already told him tt i only appreciate his frenship right now.. and he still dun get it..? he even tried to make his move on me.. argh...! so like right now, i tink i should be the one who get Shahana to act les with me.. haha.. damn it.. haha.. so i shall have my say after the exams as i have planned.. and if it still dun werk out.. i am soooo gonna throw the frenship out the window.. and i mean it...! i really do..........