have always...

i was given an option to choose. i did not think i would get any. i have always been under the impression that when things get back to the way it used to be, so would i. but no. this time round, i was given an option.

it is not like i have not thought about it. which would work out better for me. the thing about it is, i have always based it on my "loyalty" or the correctness of the situation. i have never thought of it in the light of my future. now that the option has once again resurfaced, but needing to see it and deciding differently, i am having a tough time making my mind up.

somehow, somewhere deep down inside, i know it would be just like the way it was. that is the downside of being a cancerian. that i very much prefer comfort and familiarity over anything else. i know, i am already in my comfort zone. i have thoughts of leaving it. again. yet, i do not have any valid reason to.