i'm bummed! *sighs*

yesterday was the farewell pit fer Najib and Adnan.. since they're enlisting next week, the guys planned a suprise bbq fer em.. i came down with my Prince after werk.. wished i need not go coz i was tired after werk.. but i went fer Hafiz's sake and i bet i'd miss out on a whole load of luffters i had yesterday..

we came a lil late coz they had juz raped Najib to his most bare.. which was a sight not many would wanna see.. but den again.. in the middle of the night.. i doubt we can see much anyway.. hahaha! they even got it recorded.. eeew! gang bang! so yea.. Adnan got his share too.. he bit Azman so hard tt his arm was bruised.. horrible! violent creature!

most prolly Najib will be in Nik's Coy.. both of Najib and Adnan countin down the days.. hahaha.. they make it sound as if itz the end of the world fer em.. guys! *shakes head* glad i came coz it was sure crazy time wen derz Najib around.. haha.. gonna miss his loadful of crap!

so yea.. i found out tt one of my fren, Nana got engaged in the afternoon.. she's Najib's and Adnan's cousin.. which makes me the fren of the cousins.. haha.. oh well.. she got engaged to the guy she's been seein fer years! i'm happy fer her coz the last i heard from her, she was pretty upset with him and all.. and now tt she's gonna settle down and all.. =) wen is my turn.. i wonder... haha! someone said 20 yrs.. haiz.. so letz wait and see 20 yrs down the road yea.. better start markin my calendar now..

alot of things have been goin on at werk.. many arise from communication breakdown.. as well as discontentment.. as fer myself.. i wun be leavin as yet.. yea.. i made up my mind to scram by tis month 22nd.. wen i got back from my hols.. but lookin at the way things are right now.. i dun tink i can leave juz like tt.. no doubt.. many said.. dun make others' problems urs.. if u can't see her drown, den u are juz drownin urself.. but hell... i'm tt soft hearted.. and yea.. not forgettin.. ever INDECISIVE.. but i have decided.. tt i'm stayin.. coz if i were to leave now.. i'd probably regret it.. coz i became a manager with a goal in mind.. and i intend to pursue tt goal.. i dunno how long it'll take.. i juz hope itz soon..

and yea.. it seems tt June will be a hectic month fer me.. i have 2 bdae parties to attend to.. not forgettin Faiz's bdae on 16th.. i still dunno wat to get him.. i kinda haf sth in mind.. but i still can't decide if i shld go with it.. and den my werk schedule.. haiz.. practically, it'll be juz me and Amaida runnin the show coz she decided to let Jizzete take 3 WEEKS LEAVE to go back to Phillipines..so yup.. i'd be doin loads of full shifts.. and very lil off days.. *shrugs* sth i got to do since i've made up my mind.. and i did assure her tt i'd be here thru the hard times with her..

and to make things worse...... i wun be able to see my hunnie bun fer 2 weeks!!! *sobz* coz of his intake.. boo hoo! one thing i've learnt fer sure is.... to appreciate the times we haf together.. of coz.. every single moment of it.. *hugz* and haven't u guys already heard enuff of tis... "Absence makes the heart fonder.." it sure is true.. awwww..

p/s: now, now.. dun get too jealous.. i miss everyone else too yea.. *winkz*

Day 2 of Redang Trip:-

we had to wake up early fer breakfast and den with full tummies we rushed fer our snorkelling session.. we took pictures underwater!! great!! all we had to do was to dive underwater and we can take pics with the lil fishy-es.. hahaha.. but since mine turned out horrible, i'm not postin in online.. to save u guys the torment yea.. haha..

so after 3 hours, we came back hungry and all.. in time fer our lunch buffet.. seriously, throughout the whole trip.. food's been a galore! buffet meals fer 3 days.. who can say no right.. i noe i can't.. haha.. practically the whole of day 2, we took loads of pics.. we roamed around the other side of the island.. Matt and me goin crazy and definitely silly in the water.. tryin to "surf" the wave.. and the guys tried to climb a coconut tree which they managed to.. suprisingly.. and den Weng, Jack and Matt doin stunts.. i did too u noe! haha.. Matt fell flat on his back.. while tryin to do a hand stand.. and wen we went back to our rooms.. i can't stop luffin my ass off coz they were showin AFV on tv.. and coincidentally, the videos were all about fallin backwards while on handstand.. crazy!

we were kinda disappointed since we arrived coz they were no motorised sports.. not allowed in Redang.. hence, no jet ski, no parasailin.. =( our fun was taken away from us.. we thot we could take the banana boat together.. and wen we went to the Recreation Centre.. they said that they can't do it fer us coz the sea's too rough.. haiz.. another disappointment..

at least dinner made our moods better.. it was BBQ stuff.. so we had like chicken wings, steaks etc etc.. full to the brim, we decided to take a walk.. we went to the other side.. and der were ppl lookin fer the "blue star".. it was small and can be found in the sand.. itz actually pieces of broken lil corals.. tt is sooo small.. it emits blue light.. but will die after a short while la.. it was nice.. seriously.. and Matt got to see his stars.. since it was rainin the night before.. we also chilled out at the other side since they kinda had a club thingy goin on by the beach.. listened to songs and watchin ppl doin silly dances.. cute stuff!

Pics for the day:-


-on the way to Marine Park for fishy-es!


-nice view of the whole place.. a nicer view of me eh? haha..


-we are pro surfers at the end of the trip! yeah!


-Mexican ladies.. tak jadi!


-sun tanning under the shade! cool!


-see.. they can climb! miracle!


-spot the extra!


-our own kinda porn!


-with her twisted ankle, Gina still wanted to hump me and pose fer the pic.. now ttz hardcore!


-club by the beach!

pics for Day 1!


-dinner at Kenny Rogers


-Gina insisted takin tis pic with her foot on the boat.. crazy!


-while waitin fer the ferry to Paradise


-after the loong wait, we FINALLY arrived!


-all wet after our first snorkelling trip..


-beauties of the trip!


-beasts of the trip!


-gettin comfy before dinner


-me before dinner


-me after dinner.. see the diff in my tummy? haha!


-Matt and me at the lobby's bar


-Jack, Grace, Me and Gina at the lobby


-me and Gina..


-Weng and me..

so.. i haven't been updatin my blog fer some time now..

been busy at werk.. keep havin to do full shifts here and there.. and the long waited day finally came! my leave commenced on 14th May.. Mother's Day.. yeah.. thot i could bring my ma out fer dinner but den she had to werk full shift.. so no chance.. will bring her out fer dinner early June i guess.. since i'm werkin non stop till mth end..

so yea.. i left fer Redang Island on Monday nite.. met Weng at Sengkang and den we headed to CWP to meet the rest of the peepz.. Gina, Grace and Wensheng.. Matt and Jack had gone in earlier to return Jack's friend's car.. so we met em at City Square instead..

i was lookin forward to my hols but not soo much of the loong journey we had to go thru.. we had dinner at Kenny Rogers since i wanted to eat der.. none of em can say no.. haha.. after tt we headed to Larkin where we took the bus to Terengganu.. a whole freakin 8 hours ride.. it was crazy.. it was cold.. thank god i brought along a jacket.. and throughout the whole nite.. i was listenin to Matt's mp3 which had like 20++ songs and i believed tt at the end of the journey, i was able to remember all the lyrics to the songs in his playlist.. especially Kiss Goodbye by Lee Hom.. haha..

wen we finally reached Terengganu, it was 6:30 am and we had breakfast..we thot tt we've finally arrived.. to our dismay, it took another hour to the ferry terminal.. since it was daylight.. we decided to make stupid, stupid fun out of ourselves.. takin silly pics.. and luffin out so loud others thot we were crazy..

wen we arrived at the ferry terminal, we still had to wait.. fer 2 hours before our ferry would fetch us to paradise.. wen finally the time came, i fell asleep in the ferry.. due to lack of shut eye.. and wen i was awoken, we could see the island from afar.. woo hoo! everyone was sooo excited.. our butts were all off the seats..

we reached and der was briefing tt i listened to halfway.. due to this security guard who was talkin to me.. askin me qtns.. so yea.. bein polite, i layan him abit la.. and thank me fer tt.. we need not queue fer our buffet breakfast, lunch nor dinner.. he seemed to always be der and he let us jump queue.. even settled our luggages fer us.. full service.. haha..

since we were hungry, we had our lunch and prepared fer our snorkelling trip.. virgins were most of em.. and so i was tellin em of my first experience and all.. it was disappointing! seriously.. i had more fun in Tioman.. it was more beautiful.. ppl were tellin me how beautiful Redang was and i was expectin way alot.. juz to end up disappointed.. and i didn't really like their way of organising the snorkelling trips..

after the trip.. the rest were sooo excited to take pics and dip in the sea.. trust me, the waves are much bigger compared to the ones u see at East Coast.. so tis was wen sth bad happened.. Gina was pulling me towards the sea, wen she twiste her ankle and fell.. it happened super fast, the next thing we knew, she was washed ashore by the waves.. and i really mean it literally.. hilarious shit.. so Matt piggybacked Gina all the way to the Medical Bay juz to find tt the door was locked.. i was pissed and went to the check in counter to enquire.. and guess wat.. the doctor's gone! all the asst mgr did was to pass me a first aid box..

like wat the fuck?! wat if none of us knew wat to do.. they didn't even bother to ask wat happened or see to the matter.. thank goodness, i did first aid in school.. so i knew wat to do.. and to think tt from my past experiences of twisting my leg, i would already be an expert in such area.. of coz.. but.. there wasn't even bandages in the first aid box.. and wen i asked if there was any in the Medical Bay and if he could open the room fer us so tt i can take some bandages, he said no.. the key is with the doctor and she not around.. they dun even have spare key!! so if der is any emergency on Redang Island ppl, please bear with the pain till u reach Singapore yeah..

so i bandaged Gina's ankle with some pathetic bandage.. and den we prepared fer dinner.. full like hell, we thot we could play some more.. but alas, it was raining.. haiz.. so we sat at the lobby, me and Gina were playin 5-10.. and takin shots.. it was a close game.. we had 3 shots each.. Matt had one and he was all red.. sooo cute..

afterwhich we went back to the girls' room and we talked and played some more.. till we fell asleep.. before tt, i of coz, had my daily dosage of love... *winks*

-end of part 1-

The Bottom Line
Beautiful things may distract you today, but you must keep your eye on the ball.

In Detail
You like to think you know a good thing when you see it, but it's an indisputable fact that the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. If you're single, you may spy an especially adorable couple that makes you green with envy -- if you've landed your sweetie, you'll suddenly notice how many cuties are smiling at you. Remind yourself that if the situations were different, you wouldn't be as happy. You are where you are for a darn good reason (believe it or not).

i noe i'm happy with u right now.. itz all tt i can ask fer.. and i noe no one else cuter can take me away frm ur arms.. coz u're all i want..

thanks fer bein u.. thanks fer lovin me..

*i love u*

The Bottom Line
The darkness of recent days will be leaving you as new ideas light your way today.

In Detail
The sun is shining just a bit more brightly today and your heart is just a bit lighter. Do you feel the tide turning? Hope is a powerful thing, and you've been able to hold on to enough of it to make a real difference. Blue periods can be tough, but they always result in more self-awareness and contentment. Slowly, you're entering a positive phase of strength, confidence and knowing what you want. People are ready for the new you to shine!

great! things are lookin up fer me! at least fer today.. happy! *big grinZ*

itz like almost 3 am!! my gawd! i haven't been up tis late hoggin the computer in a looong time.. well, to top things off, i finished all my 3 proposals.. tis so reminds me of school days! rushin last minute fer reports.. so my style! it makes me miss school oh sooo much!

and i noe i wun be able to do tis wifout the support of My Prince.. he was tryin soo hard to get me in the mood yesterday just so that i can finish everythin asap.. and yet i kinda waste his effort by fallin asleep on my bed, lyin on my papers, definitely in an uncomfortable position.. and not forgettin his BRILLIANT ideas.. they helped me alot! i'm sorry if i wasn't really myself yesterday.. heh.

and darlin, i miss you too!

i so need something to perk me up.. everythin abt me.. haiz..

*i miss you*

time check!

itz 7:11 pm and i'm still at werk.. why?! haiz.. i am supposed to end werk at 6 and yet i gotta help out since itz peak hour now.. i'm not too happy.. i do not know why.. itz juz one of those days..

on a lighter note.. i met Nik on Saturday.. it was a hectic day.. again i was supposed to end werk at 8 pm and yet i ended up leavin the place only close to 11.. Chelsea won 3 - 0 against Man Utd and yes.. it was a predictable game.. within 5 minutes of the first half, Chelsea scored.. how do i know so much?! yea.. i dun really watch a lot of soccer these days.. but ttz coz BJ8 had a live screening of the match at Level 3.. and we juz had to sell ourselves by selling pizza and beers.. soccer.. beers.. pizza.. wouldn't tt bring lotz of sales?!

like fuck it didn't.. half of the beer sales were generated from Pastamania ppl.. freakin dissapointment.. on top of tt.. i had my CEO, GM, Area Manager.. plus

-- dila, the drinks chits are here.. all the smoothies not out yet.. we got 2 pending baked rice.. and owe 2 of 2 sets to customers..

yes, i'm back.. is it worth stayin? i dunno.. itz like my responsibility.. den again.. is it really? haiz... so where was i? mmm.. yea.. PLUS.. one of the directors was here.. and he wasn't too happy with the fact tt everythin is in a mess! of coz.. why would he not be.. all smoothies and italian sodas goin fer only 2 freakin bucks with a purchase of pasta or pizza!! no work flow.. AT ALL! so yea.. i am goin crazy.. blender's givin problems.. staff too freakin slow.. inability to handle a normal weekend dinner crowd.. like wat the fuck..

on top of tt.. i had to run up and down to make sure tt everythin's ok.. not to mention.. customer's complaints... wat the fuck is wrong with Singaporeans??!! complain here and der.. director tellin me abt the downside of the drinks promo.. and me tryin to explain tt measures haf been taken to ensure smooth runnin of operation.. watz my designation here again? Shift Manager.. ttz abt it? so why am i still here??!! i'm SO pissed with myself!

wait.. i thot i'm supposed to be talkin abt pleasant stuff.. okie.. so Nik had to wait fer me.. and den we headed down to town.. went to Cine but i didn't feel like watchin any movies.. so, we walked and checked out the new Starbucks beside Swensen's.. i couldn't decide on any drinks hence we didn't get any.. i wonder wat the hell was wrong with me yesterday?!

i tink i am failing miserably in tryin to be happy here.. fuck!