so everythin is goin on pretty much okie for work.. i dun seem to hate it tt much.. i was given 8 days of leave.. of my choice as i need to clear my leave before the end of this year.. my leave will end tomorrow and back to work on wednesday..

alot of things happened in the past 2 mths.. there are many things that i'd rather not talk abt.. there are things that i'd rather not remember at all.. seems that i dun remember anythin bein that fruitful in my other aspects of life other than my work.. i was put in charge while she was away.. it was no big deal.. eveythin went on smoothly.. everythin.. except for the life that i was living..

sorta double life.. i dunno.. maybe.. i was very confused.. i still am i think.. it's a matter of what i want.. and up till today, i still dunno wat is it that i want.. it was disheartening.. it wasn't easy for me either.. but i made up my mind.. and there's no turning back.. the only way for it to be better is for this to happen.. should there be a reason for it, it'd be ME.

yea me.. why is it that the problem does not revolves around ME but in ME.. truly sick and tired.. of myself.. i'm serious..

thanks to the people who hears me in the middle of the night.. thanks for the continuous support that u guys gave to me.. and u guys know who u are..

last but not least, i got a HOE for my TP.

ok.. so now, u guys can stop buggin me abt my blog k.. i'm updatin it at Az's place.. haha..

oh well..

i dunno watz der to say..

things hadn't gone much in my way.. nor wat i had planned for it to be..

i dunno why.. some things are not even my fault..

i'm emotionally drained. really. i'm tired of tryin but still not able to do anythin abt it.

it's not the first. neither is it the second.

i'm sick of how things are. i wanna change everythin.

often i ask myself, if it was the right thing to do.

no, they say. why? they ask.

to me, it was the most logical thing that i gotta do. why continue lettin it happen.

why even be in it if u're not in it.

it's me, i said. i'm sorry.

sorry's not gonna change anythin. time will.

and only time will tell. till then, i dun wanna make any more empty promises.