on sunday.. i decided to go out with the mats and minahs frm Serangoon.. since last yr, i did not follow em out fer raya... i came along tis yr.. i tot tt it would be horrible... esp with the girls.. i mean like wen was the last time tt i actually sit down and talk to em..? except fer Fiza.. the rest are like aliens to me now.. haha.. so met Adi at my void deck and came along Fiza, Syikin and Eid.. so we headed to Adi's place.. and as normal.. the guys were late.. 1 hr late.. haha.. all the Star Karat came.. Mat, Dollah, Mail and Man.. haha.. been a very long time since i saw Man and wow.. he puffed up! haha.. well i always see Dollah and Mat at sch.. so did not really miss em tt much.. haha.. so all of us sat and chatted wen Fi (dun usually call her tt.. Fida is wat i call her) came.. she's super duper late.. so we headed out after eating..

basically.. there were alot of things to catch up on.. haha.. it was a lot of fun actually.. it felt as tho our frenships has nvr been stagnant.. glad it went to tt direction.. i was even more suprised wen me and Fi.. we got along.. =) we got off on a bad note durin' sec sch.. but tt's all in the past.. i found out tt she knew Shar coz they are frm the same course.. haha silly silly.. and the thing is tt Shar's Adnan's fren.. and frm Shar i knew Nasrul.. and recently.. i found out tt Nasrul and Haider are frenz.. haha.. wowwie..!

so we visited each other's houses and our sec 1 malay teacher who can't remember our names and only recognises us.. threw mean jokes at each other.. took dozens of pics lar.. cute and horrible ones.. haha.. check out the link..! had loads of luffter.. made so much noise in the bus.. took more pics.. haha.. caught up with Man.. and ate alot of goodies and kuihs.. haha.. i have a feelin i gained pounds.. it was happenin la.. all of us.. we got along well.. a whole lot of fun stuff we did.. the silliest was to ask fer forgiveness in the bus.. yes.. we did.. haha.. frm the eldest to the youngest.. hehe..

it was great time we had in the day.. but wat was better was in the nite.. after everyone else left at 11.. the 5 of us hung out at Compasspoint.. Fi and Man got sth to eat.. and we lepak at the staircase.. of all places.. yes.. so we got bored and decided to play Truth or Dare.. haha.. it started off with Adi and he wanted Dare.. haha.. i made him catwalk to a lampost and pole dance.. haha.. it was horrible.. haha.. den Fi and Man were next and they chose Truth.. we agreed tt it would only be between us.. so too bad..! haha.. and den there was me..! haha.. i chose Dare too.. and they had their fun by makin me dirty dance in my white kebaya.. haha.. and scream "I'm a Bitch and I'm Fuckin' Horny!".. haha.. thank goodness it was dark and it was at 1240.. no one ard.. haha.. Mail was next and he wanted Truth.. the next round Mail went fer Dare.. and i dared him to act like a rowdy cowboy on tis scooter.. haha.. it was cute..! haha.. and the best thing was tt we recorded all the Dares kiez.. haha..

so we had more fun at nite coz alot of juicy stuff came out.. things tt were kept fer yrs.. things tt happened behind our backs.. haha.. gossips.. haha.. i love it..! heez.. so best thing tt happened to me tt nite was Man helpin me to tell Adi the truth indirectly.. he asked me a qtn and my ans was to Adi.. yes.. the rejection part.. so yes.. it was declared.. we got things straight.. and yes.. we are still frenz now.. i hope things stays tis way... i do really.. haha.. =)

other den goin home at 230 in the mornin and my impulsive behaviour in almost gettin the rest into trouble with some troublemakers.. the nite was superb..! it was a moment of lettin go.. a moment of truth.. a moment of relieve.. a moment of pain.. a moment of forgettin.. i'm glad i came along.. i enjoyed myself to the max.. i got to thank the ppl who made it so wonderful.. ladies and gentleman.. i love u guys..

okie okie.. i noe i am supposed to do my work.. feelin' very sleepy and stonin' so i tot tt it'd be fun fer me to update me blog..

yesterday was a whole lot of fun... met Az after werk fer dinner.. had prata at tis back alley shop at Boat Quay.. it was only 630 and ppl were already callin us in fer drinks.. haha.. Nic can't wait anymore.. i knew she will tag along.. haha.. so we met up with Ling at Clarke Quay and went to look fer an ATM.. we walked one whole big round... many many thanks to Az.. haha..

finally, we are in front of IT! haha.. from far we can hear the Lion Dance.. wat not.. it was the official launch of IndoChine, Forbidden City.. yay! haha.. well.. i did not dare to go near the lions.. haha.. it looks scary alrite.. and Ling i am part Chinese.. in addition to that, i am a Peranakan.. so not pure real Cina kiez.. haha.. anywae.. we wanted to go in wen dey decided to ask fer our name cards.. we did not have any sadly.. haha.. but Az did a trick of takin out tis name card which the guy immediately went.. oh okie... u may go in.. haha..

the lions stopped prancing.. haha.. and the place was awesome.. great ambience.. chill out place where u get to meet loads of nice ppl.. and dey are mostly caucasions.. =) so we went to look fer a place to sit.. rite in front of the stage.. looks like they'll be havin performances.. headed to the bar coz it was free-flow.. the bartender kinda recognised Az and he seemed wanted everywhere.. haha.. he's cute kay.. sat and looked ard.. i finished my glass.. haha.. went to get Nic and Nath.. dey ordered more drinks.. by then the band started playing and it was jazz.. continued to chill out till der was a fashion show.. haha.. Nic and i can't stop bitchin abt the models.. heez..

Az's fren Cindy came and got more drinks.. Nic left at 10 and we stayed on.. haha.. so much fer not wanting to go home late.. so okie.. Az and i decided to head to the bar and wow.. we got comfy seats rite in front of tis bartender.. haha.. we ordered drinks.. joked ard with him fer a while.. i revealed my inner tots to Az.. she tellin me tt she knew of it all along.. haha.. i was high.. we had another drink.. tis time it was on the house.. =) the sweet bartender placed it rite in front of us.. yummy.. Cindy and Ling joined us and after tt we ordered more drinks.. it was havoc.. tis time i was so high i wanna dance.. danced fer a while.. bad thing abt all IndoChine is tt dey have no proper dance floor.. sad sad..

der were many things tt happened tt u would not see on a normal day.. haha.. i had loads of fun.. i can't stop luffin.. not drunk kiez.. i was happy.. finished our drinks.. Ling wanted to wait outside so i accompanied him.. haha.. retrieved the ladies from the bar.. haha.. shared a cab with Az and she was so friendly to the uncle tt i tink he grew afraid of her.. haha.. i wondered whether she did anythin to him after i alighted.. =p

aightz.. so tt's it fer Forbidden City.. next stop.. Desire Bar.. Wednesdays are raggae nite and also Ladies' Nite.. ooooh.. haha.. gonna drag both Nic and Az the next time round.. heez.. =)

tis afternoon, i found no reason why i should update my blog.. howeva, on my way home from werk today... i saw sth tt kinda displease me.. i dunno how u guys would react to tis... but lemme tell my story..

i sat down wen i reached Kovan station.. at the next stop which was Hougang, a couple sat diagonally across to my right.. juz to be more detailed, they were an Indian couple.. no discrimation here aight.. well.. so i juz happened to look to my right coz there was a group of mats on my left who were tryin sadly to get my attention.. i tried to divert my attention to somewhere else when i saw sth which was quite shockin.. the guy placed his left arm over the girl's shoulders.. well he's palm was cupping her breast.. yes.. he cupped her breast.. i have no idea wat fer coz she was wearin a bra and i see no need fer a support.. and his palm did not leave her breast until she pointed it to him and he moved it away.. wen he did, he was unhappy and she was tryin to talk to him nicely.. they started to have some heated discussions and den he started to grope it and caress it.. i am sorry but it was shameless.. i looked away each time and every time i turned he was doin it.. i dunno wat happened next coz i alighted at the next stop..

i personally felt disgusted.. tis showed how little he respected her.. not to mention as a girlfren but even as a human.. is tis how shameless he can get..? i dunno.. some ppl may tink tt she's a bitch.. i dunno.. but i tink tt she's a fool.. how can she go to the extend of lettin him do tis to her in public.. wateva they were to do is definitely between themselves but to display it openly.. i tink it is morally not right.. call me conservative and all.. i still tink tt it was too much of him to do tt to her.. ladies.. please do not let such jerks who sadly exist in tis world treat u like a piece of crap.. u have ur pride.. please.. the least a real man could do is to respect u.. tis kind of asswipe do not deserve ur time and feelings.. ladies.. do learn to stand up fer urself.. if such assholes are able to potray such immoral, improper and unchaste manners towards the person they so called love in public i believe tt it's high time fer u ladies to walk out on him and give him a damn hard kick on his balls.. in addition to tt, give him a tight slap across his face to show to him tt he's juz a plain mofo..

pardon me fer my language here ppl but i dun tink he deserve any appropriate treatment coz he's juz a dumbfuck.. i apologise again but i can't help it coz it's sad to see my own kind treated like some shit.. der is surely a clear line between passion and lust, love and stupidity.. here, it's an array of indecency from young adults who are immature and unprincipled.. grow up!

been very tired lately.. haven't been sleepin well.. i dunno why.. i keep havin' thots in my mind.. everytime i close my eyes, the vision comes into mind.. i dunno why it keeps happenin to me.. have i been tinkin abt it so much tt it's even der wen i'm goin to bed..? the question is whether it is even right fer me to spend time in tinkin abt it.. wat if it's all juz a mere pass-by moment.. wat if it's sth but i am not ready fer it.. wat if it's meant to be.. wat if i'm afraid.. wat if all this while i am only dreamin'.. i dun wanna fall into the dark pit of love and not knowing whether i'll be saved.. i dun wanna fall and hurt myself deep again..

so i went to werk on Thurs.. it was okie la.. very sleepy and coz of tt, my low blood syndrome comes and den the occassional headaches.. so wen it was bout 330.. i dragged Ivan to the store to get stocks and we ended up clearin up the mess der.. it was horrible.. too much stocks on the unnecessary and too little on the necessities... chatted in the store and left wen it was 4.. i changed and headed to City Hall... =)

walked ard and decided to go to Tangs.. walked ard and did not spot sth tt's nice... went to Far East.. to check out the food place.. i was tinkin' of Puncak.. but ended up at Sakura.. had a difficult time to decide wat to eat.. haha.. chose Lime juice instead of Orange juice coz it's shorter.. haha.. definitely not frm me la.. so after placing orders fer breakin fast.. went to the shoe shop downstairs to pick a nice, simple pair.. walked ard more.. i tot of curlin' my hair.. hahah.. i tink i will look horrible la... so if it's not nice.. be prepared to see me bald coz i am gonna shave all of it off.. haha..

went to Charles and Keith.. saw nth tt's nice.. went up to G2000.. i got to use up my voucher.. tried on a few pants and i found the one tt i tink looked okie.. tried a shirt and decided to buy it wen i realised tt the voucher can only be used fer single item.. haha.. paiseh la... in the end i juz bought the pants.. got the pair at Far East.. saw Roz and her sis... they dun look like siblings at all la.. how i envy her.. i wanna have an older sister who can pay fer my shoppin spree.. haha.. den went to have a drink.. i feel fat after tt kiez.. with the No Nuts Chocolate Chips from Famous Amos and den my fave, Rhumba.. definitely gainin more and more piles of fat.. hahaha.. went home and chatted with my ma.. told her abt stuff.. and she told me to dream on.. haha..

on Friday.. i juz had tis feeling to wear a baju kurung.. i dunno.. i kinda decide on it the day before.. like i tot it'll be cute rite.. so ya.. i don it.. and the whole Chinatown was givin me looks la.. erm.. i felt sooo out of place.. but nvm... i was asked to leave early... haha.. Boss allowed us to leave after lunch.. so i did my werk and went off.. got home.. started cleanin my room which i have been procrastinating.. haha.. and i got help frm Fadli later on.. he wanted to help me scrub the walls outside.. i tot it was okie.. tho i tink i could have done it on my own.. so we played with the water in the pail.. he was very excited.. he seemed as tho he enjoys doin' the stuff.. preparation fer raya and all.. he's always so eager wen he sees me with a cloth in my hands and he'll go, "Sis.. can i help...? Pleeease.. Pleeeease..." hahah.. i dun want him to do stuff tt he mite end up hurtin himself.. but my ma told me to let him help me.. so i gave him a cloth and whoosh.. he started wiping here and der.. haha..

i have not been goin down to geylang coz i was busy werkin frm Mondays to Sundays.. i am gettin tired.. but i can't help it... i dunno how long can i take it but i noe i got to go thru tis.. der are things tt i need to get.. things tt i need to do.. i may sound selfish.. but ya.. all fer myself..

lookin at myself now.. i kinda have outgrown the feelin of lookin foward to raya.. i dunno.. maybe tis yr.. it's different.. somehow.. i am not lookin foward to things.. i fear more than i hope.. wen i cleaned my room.. i got rid of things tt i shoulda have bout 6 mths ago.. i dunno why i still have em.. i had to re-install my OS.. everythin's gone.. everythin's tt saved in the comp's gone.. nth's left.. does it mean tt i got to start anew..? i dunno.. but i felt tt it's the way things shoulda have been.. disposed and untouched forever.. so i threw away the bouquets.. they held no more meaning.. i dun even feel anything no more.. juz tot of wat happened durin those times.. those times where i still hoped.. believed.. had faith.. was blinded..

"See i don't know why.. I like you so much.. I gave you.. All of my trust.. I told you I love you.. Now that's all down the drain.. Ya put me through pain.. I wanna let you know that I feel.. How I feel..
Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now.. Fuck the presents might as well throw em out.. Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack....
Ya questioned, did i care? You could ask anyone, i even said.. Ya were my "great one".. Now its... over... but I do admit I'm sad.. It hurts real bad, I can't sweat that......."

-I Don't Want You Back, Eamon

haiz.. i noe i noe.. tis got to be a hell of a super duper long update.. like wat..? 3 weeks ago.. damn...

so here goes.......

First Week of SIP:
basically i tot tt it sucks... i was desperate fer a proper piece of werk to do lar... like they made me feel useless u noe.. as tho i am not useful to em or sth along tt line.. so yar.. kinda got some minor typing of stuff to do.. other than tt.. time passes soooo slowly and i have no computer and i have nothin to do and i try sooo hard to keep myself awake by tryin sooo hard to pretend to like wat i am readin abt.. which was a conveyancing file.. damn bored la..i got a fuckin' D fer my convey and here i am assigned to David Tan who majors in convey matters.. life is gonna be sucky fer me... nothin' really much goin' on except fer my visits to court and checkin' out the cute police officers der.. and Az, they are mine..! hahaha.. so yar.. life at office seemed good coz they dun over-exploit us the way Spence's lawyer is lar.. so i began to appreciate the fact tt David Rasif & Partners have nice people that i can werk with and talk to....

went to Pastamania fer werk as normal durin' the weekends.. kinda borin' and easily tired coz i was fastin.. well.. had fun coz der was Khalid who nvr seem to fail in makin me luff at his silly and lame jokes.. and den der was Amir who will fight with me fer the mornin' shifts.. haha.. we both always get wat we requested fer.. and den der was the thing with Kok Way.. i dunno wat is it tt is goin' on rite now.. but ya.. the whole outlet's makin' a whole big fuss abt it and they are not helpin' coz it juz makes me feel awkward.. haiz... but the nice thing abt him was tt he actually bought fer me KFC wen i requested him to do so.. i was very shocked lar.. and he even took a piece fer me.. a drumstick.. oh man..! so rite now i am countin' down to his last day here.. dunno whether it's good or not but wat the hell.......

den der is Adi... fer once he actually said tt he appreciates my frenship... took him so god damn long to realize tt things will nvr be the same again.. or well it was nvr anythin on my part in the past... so yar.. now i am juz glad tt he's not bein persistent and all.. u noe stuff like tt.. so he does msg me good nite msges once in a while.. and uses DEAR with me.. like fuck lar.. but no worries coz i usuallydun reply to his msges of such.. and juz ignorin' him... hahah.. called me out fer smoke and we chatted and alrite lar... dun wanna get too close to him again..

Second Week of SIP:
Finally i get REAL werk to do.. alot of crap typin... probate matters.. draftin of a will.. draftin a charge... openin and closin of files... den der's also the filin of cases, emails, letters and etc... so i learnt to use the copier and binder and fax machine more efficiently.. hahaha... make me feel sooo dumb.. anyway.. i tink at the end of SIP.. all of us will be qualified Aunties and Uncles of Ultra Supplies.. heez.. so entertained clients.. went to court fer PTC.. and talked to clients... drafted more letters... assigned to a Shipping matter tt i have no freakin' idea wat to do or how to get abt doin' it.. in the end my lawyer took back the file from me.. thank GOD! so yar.. not fastin tis week.. so i went fer frequent smoke breaks with Nic.. sometimes with Jerry and Donald.. and yes Shahana... he's still tt cute tho i dun really tink he's cute... and he's engaged by the way.. hahaha... basically i was exposed to a lot of things tt i have nvr come across in sch before and things tt i have done.. plays the role of makin me remember stuff frm last sem and all..

Kok Way's last day is on Mon... sad sad.. so on Sun wen i requested tt he cook sth special fer my dinner, he asked me wen will he get a treat frm me since he bought fer me KFC last week.. so i told him to cook me a nice dinner (last one frm him) and told him to tink of wat he wants to eat and i'll get it fer him.. so near to 1030.. i did sth stupid and shameles.. i dunno.. tt's how i see it lar.. i gave him my number.. yes i did.. i dunno why.. but tis was wat i told him --> tis is my number.. once u decided on wat u wanna eat.. u gimme a call and i'll get it fer u kiez..
hahaha.. i noe i noe.. shameless.... enuff already... so he smiled the sweetest smile and told me he will.. tho up to tis point, he still haven't call me yet.. hahah.. fat hope lar...!

i am now beginnin to wonder why is it tt Adi will always appear in my blog.. hmm.. so he still msges me stuff like Dear tis den Dear tt.. haiz.. so i am not bothered as usual to return the msges.. but den he said tt he'll be gettin me Envy Me, Gucci fer my belated bdae present which shocked me like hell lar... i mean he's goin to such extend.. i juz told him tt it smelled nice and sweet but i did not tell him tt i wanna get it.. and furthermore, i dun wanna be sooo indebted to him and all.. okie... so now he's gettin worse coz all his good nite msges will always end with a Muacks.. which is currently gettin on my nerves.. haha.. well.. simply put i juz dun return the msges..

Third Week of SIP:
Monday was okie but it was kinda rushin fer me coz i had to draft a couple of letters and all.. waited fer my client to come by and pass me some docs so i can start draftin his Affidavit.. and he did not turn up at all... did letters for Conveyancing matters.. purchasin of recess area of HDB unit.. DT gave 2 files to read on as precedents.. drafted a Petition of Clemency.. tho i haf no freakin idea wat the hell my client's wife wanna put down in her petition.. gotta finish it by Wed mornin.. Tuesday was cool coz i went to Family Ct fer a Maintenance Mention.. got to start werk late.. and wen i reached werk.. started on my letter for a client who's dumb enuff to go into an Agreement and placing deposit and now wantin' the deposit back.. hmm.. so received all the docs needed fer the Affidavit.. started on it.. dun look like an Affidavit at all.. got a feelin Michelle will juz throw it back at my face.. haha.. of coz she wun..... =P

met Azhani and went to Bugis to meet Sobah.. decided to eat at the famous chicken rice stall opposite Bugis Junction.. ordered our food and waited fer Izad to join us.. had a hell of a time bithcin' abt werk... after dinner went to Swensen's fer ice cream.. *winks* made soo much noise coz Sobah kept givin us plain silly jokes... and he could not get my "fishball" joke.. Azhani made a boo boo by gettin a couple of jokes much later den the rest.. can't help it.. transmission's a bit slow.. hahaha... well it was juz stomach-crampin and jaw-breakin time we had.. i missed luffin so much.. hahah.. oh well... headed home with Izad at abt 10... met Mommy at Compasspoint and walked home with her.. =)