time fer an update..

7th March 2005, Monday:
it was GlobalMatrix Pte Ltd's Dinner and Dance.. everyone was excited.. but the excitement only reaches out to those who worked at Pastamania fer more than 2 yrs.. and yesh.. i was allowed to go.. haha.. so was Guorong, Matt, Ivan, Vic and Mel.. too bad Elainne cld not go coz of sch.. it was fast seeing 2 yrs of my life at PastaMania pass by.. whoosh! so it was announced that Pastamatrix International is now a wholly owned company under GlobalMatrix.. no longer juz a subsidary.. nah.. no big deal.. juz a change of management and rules.. and maybe harder to get pay raise.. haha..

the guys were like kids deciding wat to wear.. haha.. it was cute.. to actually see the outcome.. well the theme was 60's.. like wat the hell... haha.. i wanted to don a cheongsam.. but cld not find one in time.. so went to Metro on Sat and saw tis pretty cheongsam dress and a top.. was contemplating between the two coz they were so damn nice.. haha.. made up my mind and bought the cheongsam top since it can be worn again on other occassions... the guys decided to dress up like apeks.. seriously they do look so apek-ish.. heh.. so we had fun among ourselves.. the rest were more elderly ppl.. and the PastaManians from other outlets were sitted right at the back.. took a lot of pics.. didn't really get to talk to Jacky.. but saw Don.. he was way drunk tt nite.. like we dunno.. so there was Andy and Amaida.. and all the other ppl tt i haven't seen for a long time.. Ayu, Emma, Azlin was sick.. the games played were silly.. the lucky draw was takin such a dreadful long time.. ate loads of food.. had yummy cheesecake, brownies, strawberries.. i wouldn't have left the dessert table if Matt had not found me.. haha.. again we took a whole load of photos.. will upload it once i get hold of it.. hmm.. glad i came fer the Dinner and Dance.. and well.. it mite be tthe first and the last.. awwwww...

8th March 2005, Tuesday:
caught Hitch with Adrian, Zila, Yanie, Ana, Ping and Apri.. the show was great.. hmm.. maybe coz of the situation tt i was caught in a few days ago was wat tt made the show so familiar.. those words.. oh well.. yeah.. a nice show to catch if u want to get some good luff out of ur system.. it seemed to me tt Ana certainly did.. haha.. well at least at the end of the show.. it'd leave u smilin and light hearted.. good!

11th March 2005, Friday:
Arbitration Test was ridiculous! it was erm.. unnecessary.. erm.. not direct.. erm.. difficult to even interpret the qtns.. eee.. waste of time.. i feel.. haha.. oh well.. it's over now.. at least.. gotz to study fer Business Finance on Mon.. sucks..!

12th March 2005, Saturday:
i lied.. nvm.. went to werk to find out tt someone was terminated coz of his itchy fingers.. his dirty intentions.. the truth was told.. and Allen was not shocked.. neither was she angry.. she said she chose to believe us and confronted him.. it was on Friday tt she did.. he was suprised.. he admitted to it.. and he was not even ashamed abt it.. i tink.. Allen did not even want to listen to wat he got to say.. he was asked to leave.. it ended within 10 mins.. yesh.. tt fast.. like how fast a 7" Margherita would take to be baked.. haha.. oh well.. it was a good riddance.. i can't werk with him.. Allen asked me abt it.. i told her wat was buggin on my mind all tis while.. we talked.. but yet.. i dun tink i can really talk to her on a more personal level.. not tt i can't.. juz tt itz awkward u noe.. hmm.. try to make things better i hope..

14th March 2005, Monday:
i tink a lot of ppl are screwed fer Business Finance.. or at least i knew tt i did.. haiz.. dun wanna start talkin abt it.. but yea.. pretty upset and disappointed.. gotta settle down fer a C.. the worse it can get would be a D! darn! oh forget abt it!

so Daddy was upset.. he was pissed at the way i said those words.. i dun see anythin wrong with it.. no matter wat.. i still have respect fer him and i do respect him.. juz coz i said tt dun mean tt i dun.. itz irritating.. he tinks tt i am rude to him.. argh.. i am not.. i dun.. i noe i can be quite forward wen talkin but tt dun show tt i dun respect him at all.. even Mummy got some of it yesterday.. it was her last day yesterday and she was hurt by his words.. it was not her choice.. they were closing fer 2 mths fer renovation and her boss told her tt it would be her last day at werk.. she merely told tt to Daddy and der.. he burst out.. how unfair.. wat is wrong with him.. PRE-ANDROPAUSE SYMPTOMS! ttz wat i tink is wrong with him... dreadful!

i am so fuckin screwed.. why the hell did i not check the book first.. damn it.. i feel like kickin myself in the ass.. already the rest are negatively against me.. well ttz wat i tink.. fuck lar.. wat the hell haf i done to myself... shit ler... and to tink tt i need to submit it by mon.. ah.. really fucked up tis time... only help.. APRI!! and he's not online.. damn.. thank god Apri's back online... he's my saviour..! *muacks*

rite now.. i choose to tink of happy thots.. so as not to go bonkers of wat i had juz put myself thru.. on fri.. we went to Airport.. Haider, Azila, Az, Soffie, Ana, Erfen & myself... had a large lunch cum dinner at Terminal 1 Popeye's.. yummy..! had huge luffs after dinner.. totally cramped tummies we had.. been a very long time since i luffed tt bad.. with Haider and his chicken & plate.. and memoirs of yr 1.. totally cracked up the whole place.. and den derz the part where Erfen should take some tips in stealin Ana's whipped potato.. and den Azila with tt great chicky performance.. ooh.. and not forgettin her voice recording on Erfen's phone.. she sound so bad.. and Erfen with tt evil luff.. haha.. send it to me online Haider..! heh.. had ice cream.. double yummy fer me coz i ate Sticky Chewy Chocolate and Chocolate Freckles.. haha.. sinful indulgence.. watched the planes at the viewing mall and i missed sittin and starin ahead into the blank space.. it was so mind relaxing.. glad i came along to Airport..

enjoyed more luffs wen i spotted Haider.. u noe.. the sekeping, berbabat and the berbulu.. hahah.. obscene.. hah.. it felt great.. luffin juz coz Az and Erfen had a private joke abt TB042... me and Ana can't stop luffin juz lookin at them luff.. damn.. itz so burden relieving.. especially all the deadlines all over the place.. and exams in a matter of 2 weeks time.. letz all get it over and done with..! party on!

i haf no idea watz up with the Law Seniors.. a hp was lost in the LT and it contained only yr 3 students.. ttz sad u noe.. to tink tt itz our final year already and such things can still happen.. speak of trust.. speak of bein frenz fer 3 yrs.. is tis how u show frenship over the 3 years..? so wat if u are not really frenz.. i mean be honest ler.. the hp's not urs.. haf the least of morals and return it to u.. fer goodness sake's.. wat if it was ur own..? wat if someone else took urs and not return to u.. even haf the cheek to msg Azila back.. haiz.. bein Law students.. itz disappointing.. no pointing of fingers.. really.. dun need to do tis.. juz give it back.. most prolly the owner would be so grateful to u tt she wun even tink of doin anythin against the wrong-doer.. and tis is not the first time tt hp are lost.. in ILAW.. in Labs.. itz sick lar.. the thot of ppl from ur own cohort doin such things.. nothin to say should it be one of the juniors or freshmen.. coz it happened among the Seniors.. itz a shame.. and Mr. Ferlin will even be enquiring frm students.. wastin his time.. hmm.. very inconsiderate.. oh well.. if the truth be told and found out.. it'll be a definite embarassment to the wrong-doer of coz.. watever it is.. i hope tt he/she gets wat they deserve.. a literal spank on the ass!

my body aches..! haiz.. all frm playin captain's ball yesterday.. and here i am at home.. tryin really bad to ease the pain from my over-strained muscles.. every little muscles der is left on my body.. coz the rest of it are juz pure fats.. hah.. who cares anyway.. oh well.. we did secure the championship title.. thanks to the team's pure efforts... Apri(runnin up and down the whole court, nvr failin to catch the ball frm the kiddos..), Fab(who jumps so high he keeps the opponents frm scorin..), Vit(who forms the team she is the master of it all..), Chain Yu(she still gets hit by the ball in court.. haha.. she did well as usual..), Sin Ping(she who plays with enthusiasm despite havin to go thru sth bad before the game.. oh wait.. she catches the balls like it's in her blood.. haha.. even Erfen lost to her..), Joyce(the ever quiet one but yea she's always der fer u to pass the ball to..) and Dila(she who nvr fails to sprain her ankle durin the games.. but suprisingly.. she manages her footing well tis year... and yea.. she sucks as always.. haha..)

u guys did great.. and it was an honour fer me to play with u guys.. it was great playin after a long while.. the girls.. too bad we couldn't get the original team playin again.. i bet it'll be superb.. thanks whole loads guys.. and not forgettin.. our TP alumni who was also our professional photographer.. Abdillah.. he's not frm Law but yea.. can do also.. and our ever noise-makin, cheerin us on.. sexy cheerleaders.. Soffie and Azila.. thanks fer all ur support.. love u guys loads.. thanks to the juniors fer organisin the tourny.. and yea.. hope u guys enjoy it as much as the seniors did..!

alrite.. i gotta apologise to Azila coz i could not make it to sch.. i am really sorry.. i noe i promised u tt i wll be in sch by 1030.. i tried.. i had so much difficulties in walkin.. sorry sweets.. damn.. tis is wat u get fer not exercisin fer more than a year and suddenly playin the centre position in a captain's ball game.. not only one.. but 4 games..! sheesh.. time to don tt joggin shoes of mine and get some routine goin along.. but wait.. i dun have no joggin shoes at all.. hah! der's always room fer an excuse.. heh.. =D

"If You Believe in Love at First Sight, You Will Never Stop Looking."

tis was the catch phrase from Closer.. i watched it on Fri.. on some last min decision.. the gang went off to Airport.. was goin to town so did not want to go ahead with em.. took the train with Irwan to Orchard.. had dinner and caught the 0740 show.. it was a nice show to catch but yea.. it was very intense.. i dunno..

i felt tt it was not a show tt wanted to show wat one would do fer love.. nor was it to show wat love is all about.. itz not a show tt will leave ur heart fluttered and light after catchin it.. instead it will leave u in deep thoughts and ponder abt ur own life.. tt is if u are in a relationship.. it showed how modern ppl live their love life.. it showed how betrayals easily occurs.. it showed how trust forms a major part of one's love life..

love was used as an excuse many a times in tis show.. "if you love me. you will forgive me." the characters seem to be makin use of each other.. ttz sad.. especially the men in the movie.. they seem to make use of the ladies in order to show to the other how powerful they are.. how egoistic they are.. male chauvanists.. for the fact tt they had sex with each other juz to show the other tt they can get above the other.. itz sad.. i mean like... betrayals' all over their faces.. damn.. is tt wat love is all abt now..? well in the end.. no one wins.. every character is a loser in their own love life.. such disappointment..