-=Dinner with the Ladies & Ling at Cafe Vanezia on 31st May=-



aww.. Azila looks happy with her prezzie.. =)



G15 sisters.. cute aren't we..? Azhani was jealous wen she took tis pic.. i can smell it rite out frm her.. haha..



"i licked it, put it in my mouth, and almost got choked on it but i still love it.." Nicole Richie.



before food..



after food.. satisfaction. aahhhhh..



From Right:
Cheena, Minah and Phillipina

i went fer the interview. i wanna get the position. i thot i got it. but i kinda screwed up.

i hate her fer not bein friendly coz u are afterall the from Human Resource dept. ur human relationship shld be daym better den mine. sadly u are not.

sushi dinner at Sakae with Vic and Yong Shun, Mel and Elainne, Ivan and Joyce as well as me and Adrian. felt better after havin my wasabi and sashimi. everythin went alrite. i had fun. i bet everyone else had fun too.

it felt like as tho i was movin. away from myself. away from wat i noe is real. i was beginnin to lose myself. my body became weak. my mind began driftin. into a place which i felt was familiar. one tt i have not been to in years. i could hear tt sound. it made me feel worse. i wanted to comfort myself. but i could feel myself cringe further. i am hearin it again. it was worse now. it sounded like satanic chants. i wanted to cover my ears. i couldn't. i was weak. i wanted to scream. but no one could hear me. i wanted to wake up. itz pullin me back. i wanted to open my eyes. i juz can't do it. i can't feel myself. i can't feel my blanket. i can't feel my bed. and all i see is black. darkness. injectin me with fear. swallowin me. savourin me.
















thanks to the paracetamol i took. i had hallucinations.

i had a dream.

it was a wierd, disturbin one. she said.

juz forget abt it. she said.

maybe i juz shld.

maybe i shldn't.

i noe i shld.

in my memories it will be. tt i marked yesterday as the day i had the dream.

i had a dream.. juz last nite.. really.. sth which i was not lookin forward to.. it was wierd.. i woke up and thot more abt it.. till now i am still tinkin.. oh well.. after much thots.. i tink it was not wierd at all.. nah.. i tink it would be alrite fer it to happen.. i hope.. with the blessings of all the ppl i need.. i hope it can all come true..
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.. i dreamt of Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman. now i am confused.. i dunno which is which.. whether itz Tun or Tuanku but yea.. i hope tis dream can come true again.. maybe itz a sign.. maybe the deprived individual can get his A&W.. and i can get my Dunkin Donuts.. maybe Baskin Robbins.. erm.. and complete shoppin at One Utama.. haha.. oh well.. the last time i dreamt of KL.. Az made my dream come true.. tis time round.. hmm.. i wonder who's gonna make it come true.. heh. =D

tis week.. wat have i been doin.. hmm... werk, werk, werk.. daym.. i need a break.. maybe yes... from Pastamania.. maybe i have had enuff.. wat i faced today was not really of a major issue.. but yea.. i can't take it no more.. takin me fer granted.. i dun like tt.. minus the fact tt i do take things in my life fer granted.. but tis is different.. i dunno.. i see no relation.. so yea.. a break from all of those crap i so need.. haha.. see Faiz.. i can speak Yoda language.. who says i can't? hah!

oh well.. on wed nite.. it was the BBQ with the Serangoonians.. itz been like ages since i last met em.. the ladies lar.. as fer the guys.. still do lepak with em at Starbucks.. but fer the fact tt tis mite be the last gathering fer all of us together before the guys goes to serve the nation.. Dollah went in yesterday.. Azman today.. and den Mat.. after which is Ismail.. lastly is Adi and he's goin in on my birthday.. hahaha.. same with Ivan.. haiz.. *sob* *sob* sooo gonna miss Ivan at werk.. i tink i will miss everyone soon.. haiz..

so the BBQ went on well except fer some major disagreements arisin from minor things tt shld not even be taken into consideration at all.. anyway.. i had fun with everyone.. heard some stuff which i wld not expect come about.. heard some things abt someone which i can't believe.. great time catchin up with the ladies.. met someone i had not met in close to 3 yrs.. had pretty good conversations.. some dumb ones.. lost on Coke.. ate nice food.. it was enlightening to see everyone enjoyin themselves..

so yesterday.. again i had fun.. shopping! haha.. everythin went great fer me.. good.. i will resume my drivin lessons in 2 weeks time.. and i received a phone call i have been waitin fer.. hope i can push it back to July coz i need to give sufficient notice.. i hope it comes true.. a change of environment.. we were at G2000 and guess wat.. i bought all my stuff with a discount of 45%.. hah! goodie goodie.. great shoppin time i had.. heavy dinner we had.. great luffs we all shared.. and a long day i have had.. i am lookin forward to everythin except tis irritatin piece of blot i am havin which i am so not tellin where.. haha..