this is just a temporary arrangement till i've decided on how to pimp my blog.. i like the blue though.. =)

Ling's birthday party was on Saturday (note: it's not Ling the rockstar karat but my new found girlfriend!).. her 21st birthday party was held at Woodlands (to think about it, apart from being called the same name.. they BOTH live in woodlands!! thank god different areas! haha).. and everyone, almost everyone, was from the east side.. and they were lost.. it's so funny and fun.. haha.. and oh, i played Battlefield for the first time that night.. it was like Counter Strike and i did enjoy it somehow.. =)

i spent the whole day meddling with photoshop again.. simple editing, nothing elaborate.. but i like how all the pictures turned out.. and it's only the ones taken when we picked the boys up from the airport.. i intend to edit all my pictures from now on.. hehe.. and i've also opened a new flickr account because photobucket decided to do their maintenance when i need to upload my pictures.. and then i realised that they are not as userfriendly as photobucket.. =( oh, i have yet to receive my birthday pictures from Thomas..! *shakes head*


getting artsy fartsy at Macs


Mon's last minute attempt on creativity, not bad at all

and we were in the running for the mocca.com advertisement models too!

model #1


model #2


model #3


our very own mocca.com advertisement


the crazy but super hott girlfriends


looking out for our ones


AfterTheSky & the girlfriends

and oh, my boyfriend will be taking out his wisdom teeth tomorrow, yes not one but 2 teeth at one go!! i hope it's going to be as painless as possible for him.. *prays hard* now, i have to start thinking of what flavour porridge to cook for each day.. hahaha.. *kisSes*

i tend to say the wrong things or things that i don't mean when i'm emotional.. yes, i let my little heart rule my big head.. and it gets really crazy up there, where yes means no and no means yes, when rational doesn't sound right at all and thinking silence will answer it all..

it's wrong, wrong, wrong.. knowing that plus the whole puddle of nonsense in my head, it doesn't help saying much.. because it doesn't make sense at all.. i go round and round, ending up confusing myself sometimes..

honestly, i was scared.. yes, i was.. and i wanted to know that it's alright.. that it will be alright.. when the time comes ...

today :-

1. training (breakfast followed by tea break and then dinner with drinks at some pub)
obviously i didn't go for it because i'm still at home.. i woke up late and was not in the mood for it anyway..

2. movie and dinner with G15
not going for the movie because i won't be able to make it on time.. i have a feeling they're gonna watch Rush Hour 3 which i've already watched last night with my darling.. it's funny and stupid, it really cracks you up.. =)

3. dinner and clubbing with Amaida and Jean
i ruled this out because i've just met them last week.. so, i figured it's good to give some attention to my other friends because i love them all too.. =)

4. Ain's suprise birthday party
due to some previous misunderstanding, i was pretty turned off by the idea of going.. but i guess, it's only proper that i return them with my presence since they did come for my party.. and it would be immature of me not to right? and so i will..

5. Le Chameux first gig
when i got the message, my first reaction was WHAT THE FUCK?! seriously.. it won't work i tell you.. the only reason why i patronise their pub was to support Richard and just chill out.. so, like whatever!

when i am free, i'm super free.. and when i'm booked, look at that.. *shakes head*

by the way, my dear boyfriend bought me a kimono straight from Japan.. it was sweet and i definitely love it.. but when am i going to wear it? hahaha.. i seriously don't know.. me and the girls were planning Halloween Night! maybe we should.. hahaha..

my baby's coming back on late Wednesday night.. can't wait for him to get back.. been missing him so much.. i wonder if he misses me as much.. i've been keeping myself busy over the weekend though.. the girlfriends will be suprising the boyfriends with their very own creations.. i hope he likes it.. *cross fingers*

went to Baybeats with the girls.. caught Plain Sunset on Friday, and their songs' always stuck in your head after their set.. it's catchy like that..

also A Vacant Affair on Saturday.. Aaron's no longer in the band.. when i heard them live the first time without Aaron, i thought that it was bad.. really, it's like they're missing the best element in their songs.. he was still there to help them out though.. well, they're not that bad during their set too..

and the Swedish band, Blindside.. they're not so bad themselves.. got the crowd really up and about with their songs.. =)

i was offered a job which i still don't know what's the remunerations' like.. freaking hell i don't even know how much am i going to be paid.. the thing is that, i know it's good money.. like Wheel of Fortune kind of good money.. i'm actually still unsure.. urgh!

some photos taken!


Zul dove into the crowd! hell yea!


Zad had his fair share of surfing too! hehe!


John Chan of Plain Sunset..


their last song was the ever favourite, "Plain Sunset"


A Vacant Affair with Crestfallen..


all nice and sweaty after Plain Sunset's set.. yeah!


camwhoring while waiting for the last train.. hee!


all the ladies.. sexy!


with Blindside at the carpark.. wee!

i was just thinking about it.. could it have been my expectations?

who doesn't want a job that pays you enough to last a few months of unemployment.. and yet, does the money justify it all? i resigned because i was unhappy.. it's not about the people.. again, i've made close relationships with my colleagues.. that shows that i'm not someone who's hard to work with..

it was simply about welfare.. my manager, he was so biased that he couldn't give a fuck about anything else.. if your sales is good, you are in his good books.. well, sadly i was not because i was performing average on my sales.. even though i hit above my individual target set each month, it was not enough.. on top of that, my efforts contributed in other areas were not appreciated at all.. he did not stood up for me.. instead, my senior and supervisor did..

that really blew me up.. and i could have resigned earlier given the shit that i get.. and yet, i tried to convince myself that probably it could work.. if i try harder.. well, harder wasn't hard enough.. and i was done trying.. i dragged myself to work because i hate it.. which resulted in a couple on impunctualities.. i was waiting for them to give me an opportunity to resign..

and they did.. so, i'm looking for a job that's ideal for me.. is it too much to ask for a good and fair manager/superior? is it too much to ask for a higher pay because i know that the amount of work i do is not justified by my pay? am i unhappy because of the expectations that i have from a job? am i to lower my expectations in order to be content in a place? would that really help? i don't think so..

i'm a hard person to please..