sometimes, looking at your horoscopes can help in small ways.. especially when you know something is bothering you.. it works as a guide.. sure thing, don't be too dependant on it though..

i'm in need of comfort.. i'm in need of being pampered.. i'm in need of attention..

i feel cold inside, all of me..

did i mention there's a bouquet of white roses in my office?

Cancer & Aries

When Aries and Cancer come together in a love affair, it's a case of opposites attracting. Aries is rash and brash while Cancer is sensitive and emotional. Aries can certainly be emotional -- in a fiery, impetuous way that can completely overwhelm Cancer. Even though Cancer usually likes to take time with relationships, Aries's whirlwind approach can be extremely stimulating. Aries, on the other hand, may find the Cancerian sensitivity appealing; it's a good balance for the typical Aries bluntness. Troubles may arise if Cancer's mood swings or Aries's aggression becomes hurtful. Both Signs must take time to listen to their partner's needs and understand that they're coming from different directions to meet a common goal.

Cancer is the Sign of Home while Aries is the Sign of Self. One great dynamic between these two is that both Signs are extremely protective of those they love. Cancer uses that Crab shell to draw around themselves and their family and mate when trouble is near, while the Ram uses their strength and bravery, like a knight in shining armor. Cancer also provides Aries with a happy domestic life and emotional security. Sometimes they might build an idealized image of their Aries partner or be overly possessive, which can really grate on independent Aries. However, Aries can help by reassuring their Cancer partner that they are loved and cherished. Aries really needs to learn to listen to Cancer: the Crab operates on an instinctive level and their advice can help Aries avoid making silly mistakes caused by that typical Aries lack of planning.

Aries is ruled by the Planet Mars and Cancer is ruled by the emotional Moon. Mars was the God of War, and Aries is a soldier meeting every challenge head-on. Aries's open, passionate nature appeals to Cancer, who often internalizes emotions and feelings. Cancer can have intense, feminine energy and Aries can help them learn to release it. The Moon controls tides of the Earth, quietly affecting all life; similarly, Cancer works behind the scenes (while Aries rushes into battle). Cancer tends to be sentimental and can teach Aries to slow down and appreciate life instead of always rushing on to the next thing.

Aries is a Fire Sign and Cancer is a Water Sign. These two elements can be a great combination if they work together, using both emotion and action to get things done. Cancer can help Aries slow down and learn to be gentle, while Aries teaches Cancer to come out of their shells. But Cancer can be emotionally manipulative -- sometimes there's just too much Water dampening Aries's enthusiasm. Conversely, too much Fire can cause Water to evaporate, leaving Cancer emotionally raw. Aries and Cancer must talk openly and freely to ensure their balance is maintained.

Aries and Cancer are both Cardinal Signs. Both Signs are initiators, but they have to learn to cooperate. On the surface, Aries is the leader, always rushing out to meet a challenge, but Cancer is also indirectly in charge through emotional control and the ability to weigh the situation. Cancer tends to compromise more easily while Aries can be unwilling to yield, so the Crab may have to accept giving in.

What's the best aspect of the Aries-Cancer relationship? Once they realize they're on the same team, the combination of Fire and Water works well together. Aries is out there getting attention and Cancer is quietly supporting the back end. Each partner's ability to provide what the other is lacking makes theirs an equal relationship.

i was just thinking.. well, the weather makes me feel very mellow and jaded.. and so, random thoughts just crept into my mind..

how come i don't remember the chilly weather of last year..

how come i don't remember feeling so cold walking home from work..

how come i don't remember the splash of the iced water from the tap on my face..

how come i don't remember what was i doing at this point of time last year..

how come.. were all the events that happened last year too insignificant? or could it be that i choose not to remember?

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have

- Pieces, Sum 41

i said, fight for what you want.. don't expect it to come knocking at your door cause it won't..

paranoia eats all of your common sense.. it deters your ability to see things clearly.. it makes ur brain as cluttered as the drain at the back of your house..

pessimism makes you the idiot you called others.. and yet when you are in that position, you refused to be called the idiot.. it's not going to help solve your woes by being pessimistic.. but it sure does help to improve your imagination when you start thinking of all the different scenarios that can happen..

exaggerating is not lying.. it's just telling the truth in a bigger proportion.. though it's not healthy, humans tell lies easily like it's their second nature.. so, don't go telling people that you don't lie at all because at some point of your life you have done it before and of course, the expert in lying becomes you..

please note that whatever i have written above does not refer to any person or thing in particular.. afterall, it is my blog.. it's just some things that i thought of just now.. it could jolly well be referring directly to me or not.. for, i am known to be quite a pessimistic paranoia to some..

The Process of Self Destruction, Brand New Sunset

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somehow, i felt the tension at work just now.. was it just me or was it from her as well.. i can't tell.. maybe, i should start using my tears to gain sympathy.. but hell, that's not what i need.. i don't need sympathy.. i don't want it either..

i want to be appreciated.. i want to be told that i did a better job.. i want my efforts to be talked about.. but no, i'm not getting the slightest bit of any those at all.. instead, i got reprimanded for something i didn't do or even aware of.. my patience will pay off.. with a big fat bonus! haha.. yea right!

it was a weekend of fun.. party at Fullerton on Friday was a killer.. the place was grand and the people were just great.. and then there's the gig at Home Club on Saturday.. the performances were way good.. A Night at the Museum was funny in a stupid way..

spending time with my boyfriend makes me happy.. and yea, the suprise was out.. a tad too early.. but i figured, i wouldn't have been able to keep it mum for long anyway..

-happy, happy-